Ten-thousand, nine-hundred, fifty.

I keep telling myself I’ll spend a few minutes here working on my blog today — I keep putting it off. I must be expecting something profound or enlightening to spill out from my hands out onto the screen; nothing doing.

Today, I’m thirty years old. My twenties are over. My twenties are over and I’m damn near certain that the damage I’ve done to my long-term memory is what’s keeping me from spending the day lost in regret at having wasted some of my best years struggling and learning how to become the person that I am today. I do, however, find much comfort in my optimisim for what the future has in store and also in the experience that I’ve gained by taking the path that I have. If I only would’ve spent the first part of my life directing as much energy into making money as I did in shooting it up into my arm…

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The dust has somewhat settled after a make-it-or-break kind of week. An evergrowing shit-storm is certainly in the works and I can only smile my way through its brewing and make the best of it. Life has been easier, although one unique and promising aspect that seperates this time from any other in my life […]

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holy fucking shit pt.1

Not much else to say here, really. I’m turning 30 in just a few weeks, I have no job and have been unemployed for almost a full year, I’ve got Hepatitis C and have to start treatment right about the day of my birthday. In an effort to keep myself afloat I made an attempt […]

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a serious venture

With my last few hundred dollars I’ve decided to pay all my bills and cut my expenses down to almost nothing. I ditched my home phone at $70 a month and went with VoIP at a mere $15. I’ve changed my cell plan to cost me an easy $30 a month instead of $80. I’ve […]

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here we go

As much as I’ve wanted (and tried) to ignore the whole Hepatitis C thing, the day to start treatment is coming much faster than I’d like. I’ve done no reading, no research, nothing to acknowledge that I’m probably going to be sick as fuck for about a month, and then to top it all off, […]

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need. more. time.

I wish I had more time to put towards the so-called story of my life here. In trying to start a business and make things happen I find that the days go by far too quickly and seem to be one big mesh of milky brain puss at the end of the week. Last weekend […]

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I’ve got big questions on both how this works and how long it lasts. I’ve heard and read horror stories about taking Ibogaine for a day or so and then coming out of it only to head straight into withdrawal.

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i believe in jesus (juice)

Only another hour or so until they accounce the Michael Jackson verdict. I haven’t been a real big follower of the whole thing, but it is interesting. Jackson goes to jail? My god, the entertainment value of this guy winding up in prison is just too much. If he didn’t do it, great; let the […]

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jesus, schmesus

I would venture to guess if you believed in a god you might be feeling very angry at him/her for the things that have gone wrong in your life. Not at all… Actually, I’m pretty much content with my life and most often even elated to be living it. It must be at least somewhat […]

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