holy fucking shit pt.1

Not much else to say here, really. I’m turning 30 in just a few weeks, I have no job and have been unemployed for almost a full year, I’ve got Hepatitis C and have to start treatment right about the day of my birthday. In an effort to keep myself afloat I made an attempt at starting my own business, but I just didn’t quite get there (not that I won’t eventually get there, but it’s going to be pretty fucking hard with a load of Interferon pulsing through my veins) and I’m damn near completely out of the savings which I’ve used on my insurance for buprenorphine and other medicinal horseshit.

I have, however, managed to keep certain personal projects above the surface and I deserve a big pat on the back, if not some sort of fancily perverted spanking, in light of my achievements there.

Keep that pain and suffering coming, life, I can take it as you dish it out (you fucker.)

8 thoughts on “holy fucking shit pt.1

  1. I hate it when bad things happen around birthdays…my apartment got raided on my 21st birthday, but that was a blessing in disguise because while they didn’t find anything, they still couldve picked me up on warrants, but didn’t because it was my birthday and I was going to see Eddie Izzard that night, so they just figured theyd get me later (it took a year to get me for those warrants, actually, they dont understand that a junky who lives a block from town really can stay inside and away from town for a year)

    My mom got a spinal tap for her 40-something birthday, it just seems wrong for things to happen on birthdays. At least drug dealers seem to understand. My favorite street dealer remembered my birthday, which was amazing, and last year I was down a few days before it, picking up only six bags, and he gave me a bundle extra and said Happy Birthday…so at least some people DO see life as I do, which is that on your birthday nothing bad should ever happen to you, and you should be protected and loved and looked after…so maybe this means that your treatment will go fantasticaly well because of the proximity to your birthday!

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  2. Happy birthday!
    Sorry to hear about the hep c deal, if you need anything just let me know. And if there is anything I can do to help you with your business especially while your sick from treatment or whatever feel free to ask. I will do whatever I can for free if it would help you at all. Your definitely one of the coolest, most generous, helpful, and stand up guys I have known. Things will work out for you long as you keep doing what your doing. Good luck with everything.

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  3. I Agree..keepp doing what you do and when it’s your time to shine..you will shine..and brightly too. Imho..you already do.

    be well
    m_bc

    Dito on the help thing..if you need any..just holler.

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  4. fuck yes you deserve a pat on the back, and like most of us you get a foot in the ass half the time, but hey billi your fuckin inspirational to a tired ass junky like me – you’ve given me a big boost with your energy and projects and if it wasn’t for junkylife i’d a had no reason to get my home pc back up and running. i’ve actually built a new one just so that i can post at home again, and have rekindled my interest in SOMETHING other than getting high. keep kicking ass i’m fucking rooting for you cuz rooting for you is rooting for all of us.

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  5. Hey Bi11i. JYS is right about the rooting for you is rooting for us all. Cuz all of us are alike in alot of ways. Alot of the bad things are our own fault yeah…but once your “stuck” in this kind of life it’s sooo hard to get out and we’re all caught in one way or another.
    I’m not sure what kind of help I could offer but I’m here for ya, even if it’s just needing someone to talk too.

    Ogre

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